Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Random things about me

- I grew up in Wisconsin and didn't live out of state until I was 22.

- I'm afraid of the dark. So much so, that I sleep with a nightlight and have mini heart attacks at any noise I hear at nighttime. Some call it anxiety, I call it...normal. I've been that way since the day I moved out of my mom's house. I also have a fear that people are following me at nighttime. Whether I'm walking or driving, I'm always looking behind me/checking the rearview mirror. But only when I'm alone, of course. I don't want people thinking I'm crazy or anything. ;]

- I always claim that movies/bands are my absolute favorite. But, if they were really my absolute favorite, I'd only have one of each. And I have many in both categories. Oh, details.

- I love the color black. I'm not goth. It matches everything. Like my personality, my heart, my soul....muahhahahaha. Okay, that last line was a joke. I think.....

- I prefer handwritten letters to e-mails. Face to face conversations to phone calls. I have a love/hate relationship with technology for those two reasons.

- I have high blood pressure that I take daily medication for. Well....supposed to. I forget sometimes. Shhhh, don't tell. Anyways, it stumps the doctors. They can't figure out why I have it at 24 when I'm fit and in good health. I also have elevated levels of adrenaline and renin(sp?) levels according to my last doctor's visit....whatever that means. I have 3 warning signs for glaucoma and get horrible migraines. I seem to always have a cold and get steroid flushes to help my immune system fight off illnesses. Pretty much...I'm the weird sick kid. But if I didn't tell you any of that, you would never know.

- I got an art scholarship. It was one of those use it or lose it type of deals. I didn't use it. I kick myself pretty much everyday for it. I don't even draw anymore.....

- I like hair and makeup and nail polish and all that cosmetic stuff. I've been to cosmetology school. But, I'm still a tomboy at heart. I will forever be a jeans and t-shirt girl. Just one that is a little vain, if that's even possible.

- It bugs me to no end when people tell me I'm too skinny. And enough with this "curvy girls are better" crap. Shut up already. No one is "better" than anyone else. I'm healthy. I don't say anything about your weight, so leave mine alone. If I'm too skinny, I'm pretty sure my doctor will let me know. Unless you are a doctor and one that knows me and my medical history, I don't give a flying fart in space about what you think. And frankly, it just makes me think you're annoying and slightly rude.

- I love my Mom more than I can tell her. She's my hero.

- I don't do well with blood. Or syringes. I have a tattoo and piercings. Odd, eh?

- I like scars. I like feeling them (soft, raised, hard, uneven)  and hearing the stories behind them. It's like they're memories of your life that you're never supposed to forget.

- When I talk to people, I look at their eyes. Not their mouth or even their whole face. So when someone has facial piercings or something that detracts my attention from their eyes, I seem not to like it. On the flip of that, I want people to focus on my eyes instead of my whole face, so I wear dark eyeliner to make my eyes stand out against otherwise normally muted make up. I couldn't tell you why.

- I have a pretty high pain tolerance. I giggled when I got my tattoo and didn't even feel it when I got my tongue pierced. It was so quick and painless. Although the guy that did it didn't use clamps, and I've heard that's the worst part. So maybe I just lucked out.

- I like dark greens and dark purples together. I like greys and yellows together. Something about the pairing of them makes me happy.

Monday, December 13, 2010


"What is it? My dear?"
"Ah, how can we bear it?"
"Bear what?"
"This. For so short a time. How can we sleep this time away?"
"We can be quiet together, and pretend-- since it is only the beginning-- that we have all the time in the world."
"And every day we shall have less. And then none."
"Would you rather, therefore, have had nothing at all?"
"No. This is where I have always been coming to. Since my time began. And when I go away from here, this will be the mid-point, to which everything ran, before, and from which everything will run. But now, my love, we are here, we are now, and those other times are running elsewhere."

--A. S. Byatt